Jenn Taylor #rerouting

We decided to get try for a baby early on in 2009. I got pregnant on our first try. Immediately imagined the life I’d wanted for forever. The baby was lost at 7 weeks. 18 months of unexplained infertility. Clomid, temps, obsession, and every month excitement ending in disappointment. I got pregnant with my firstborn and gave birth in May 2012. We thought we would lose him too in the beginning and the birth was traumatic, but he was perfect. Three babies (bgb), three natural births, completely different experiences with all. Unrecognized ppd with my first. Severe anxiety. I was alone most of the time with a firefighter husband who worked far. I felt alone in much of my parenting journey. It's hard to know someone until you have kids and find that how you were raised was so different. This is even more of a struggle when my husband was gone most of the time and came home to a family and home he didn’t get to control most of the time. I lived far away from my own supportive family and got used to doing things al