Preston Moore: Thoughts, Attitudes & Behaviors

I have had so many a-ha moments in the last couple of weeks. With that has come some high highs and some low lows. I didn’t realize it and probably wouldn’t admit it to you but when I experience a wide range of emotions, my instinct is to retreat to my safe place. The safe place for me is, do whatever I need to do to remain calm and relaxed so I don’t experience emotions that are too intense. By calm and relaxed I mean, like a duck, chill above water and chaos below. That also applies to the good emotions like being happy, joyous, free and the ability to feel excited. By protecting myself against negative emotions like shame, guilt, fear and abandonment I also negate my ability to feel the emotions that I want to feel like being happy and satisfied. The funny thing is I would’ve never told you that I protected my emotions so voraciously... because I just didn’t know it! So what’s the solution? Remember that the recovery process is long. I need to quit acting like a sprinter and act like a marathoner! Please l