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A star-studded collection of essays from acclaimed and bestselling authors and celebrities that illuminates the lasting power of desire and longing, and celebrates our initiation into the euphoria, pain, and mystery that is our first celebrity crush.

You never forget your first crush . . .

CRUSH brings together stories of heartbreak, humiliation, and hilarity from a roster of popular luminaries, including James Franco, Carrie Fisher, Stephen King, Roxane Gay, Jodi Picoult, Emily Gould, and Hanna Rosin, who share intimate memories of that first intense taste of love. Here are funny, whimsical, sometimes cringe-worthy tales of falling head over heels for River Phoenix, Mary Tyler Moore, Howard Cosell, Jared Leto, and a host of other pop culture icons.

A few contributors channeled their devotion into obsessively writing embarrassing fan letters. Some taped pics in school lockers. Others decorated their bedroom walls with posters. For tweenaged Karin Tanabe, it was discovering bad boy Andy Garcia—playing the gun-loving mobster Vincent Corleone in The Godfather III. Barbara Graham unsuccessfully staked out an apartment on Park Avenue for a glimpse of her blue-eyed soulmate, Paul Newman. There was only one puppy for six-year-old Jodi Picoult—Donny Osmond—while Jamie Brisick’s pre-teen addiction was Speed Racer.

Swoon-worthy and unforgettable, the essays in CRUSH will leave you laughing, make you cry, and keep you enthralled—just like your first celebrity crush.


  • 001 Crush

    Duration: 46s
  • 002 Introduction

    Duration: 06min
  • 003 Part I And They Called It Puppy Love

    Duration: 11min
  • 004 Beautiful

    Duration: 01min
  • 005 I've Got a Crush on Julia Roberts ... and Six Words

    Duration: 05min
  • 006 Start Me Up

    Duration: 06min
  • 007 Dynamite

    Duration: 11min
  • 008 Kissing Michael Jackson

    Duration: 08min
  • 009 Part II The Love Boat

    Duration: 05min
  • 010 The Liril Soap Girl

    Duration: 15min
  • 011 The Force Is with Mark Hamill

    Duration: 11min
  • 012 The Secretary

    Duration: 10min
  • 013 Part III The Decent Man

    Duration: 04min
  • 014 Harry Chapin- A Crush of the Soul

    Duration: 10min
  • 015 I Gave Birth to Tatum O'Neal

    Duration: 12min
  • 016 Crushable John Lennon

    Duration: 11min
  • 017 Part IV Crushin' on River

    Duration: 09min
  • 018 Little House

    Duration: 20min
  • 019 Me Tarzan

    Duration: 13min
  • 020 The Chosen

    Duration: 19min
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