If Not Now, When?

A talk about embracing change and stepping out of our comfort zones. How daily routines and the sameness of old habits can lead to falling into ruts.   https://onbecomingmaria.blog

How pursuing my dreams as an older woman makes me feel like the window of opportunity might be closing. Being worried about racing against the imagined clock and running out of time. 

Old ways of thinking get in the way of my writing, causing me to feel like I don't belong. Lately, I have so many creative tasks in the works, my inner trash-talker wants me to pump the breaks. Fear wants to slow me down.  https://onbecomingmaria.blog  

Whose idea was that decision? Are we really calling the shots in our lives or have we been giving our power away? The magic and brilliance in each of us can shine a whole lot brighter if we let it.    https://onbecomingmaria.blog

An emotional hangover and a bit of panic.   https://onbecomingmaria.blog

A look at some the mind-resistant yo-yoing along the journey to calling myself a creative entrepreneur. What it has taken to pursue the dream chase in middle-age. The official business I now find myself in.    https://onbecomingmaria.blog/2018/07/18/body-image-blogging-content-other-updates/

A reckoning and reconciling update-- New Maria continues her merge with parts of Old Maria. A look back on blogging days while active in alcoholism, a little potty mouth history, lamenting lost friendships, and bragging about my Brooklyn roots.   https://onbecomingmaria.blog/2018/07/09/a-slice-of-ramble/

The complicated relationship I have with my mother is one filled with all the things, pain, a little bit of joy, humor, a lot of sadness, and a smidgen of regret. Society's messages about motherhood. This was a hard episode for me to record.    https://onbecomingmaria.blog

Triggered by a song which reminded me how different life is today and how much I've changed in two years. I recall frequent teary days when I was miserable in a job I had grown to hate.    https://onbecomingmaria.blog   From my morning run playlist, These Days by Angel Snow-- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lTw4OXG4eEA

A little bit of talk about my sex life.     https://onbecomingmaria.blog

Untangling my mind from patriarchal programming. Being on this creative journey has revealed how securely I had locked my mind into a mental prison of my own making. A look at old me versus new me.   https://onbecomingmaria.blog    

A very introspective episode about my old life versus my new life and the lessons learned. How I navigated going from life as a social worker to working in NYC as a corporate employee. Using the podcast to start a self-love revolution.   https://onbecomingmaria.blog

Recalling my days as a sell-out. How and why (in my old life) I sold myself out, sold my sister out, and sold fellow black people out. The choices made due to wounding become inevitable reckonings for us all. How I have been discovering grace.    http://whenigrowupcoach.com https://onbecomingmaria.blog/2018/05/16/courage-not-guaranteed/

What do any of us really know about expressing LOVE? Do you love intentionally or are you just going through the motions? I used to think the idea of a love quest was ridiculous until I actually tried it.     onbecomingmaria.blog

I'm making a confession about a secret I am intentionally keeping on this creative journey.     onbecomingmaria.blog

How being a truth-teller informed my blogging style, podcasting style and changed my life. How it also helped me to leave shame and secret-keeping behind, to become a woman who is an open book about her experiences. An update on my Love Journey. A look at crying with intention. onbecomingmaria.blog

This is not the show I had planned for today but life happens, so I'm sharing something a little tender which I have been dealing with lately.     onbecomingmaria.blog

Learning how to embrace all of my differing personas. Staying true to who I am, even the shadowy parts which tend to elicit shameful feelings. How a conversation - about a racially charged article - in mixed company made me feel like I dropped the ball on honesty.     onbecomingmaria.blog

Bringing forth my Essence; allowing who I really am to shine through.     onbecomingmaria.blog

A plug for daily meditation and quitting your day job (if it makes you miserable). A reminder that there is brilliance and talent inside all of us, without exception. We've been misled to believe that only some of us have gifts. 10:24 The chip I used to wear on my shoulder at the workplace 15:40 My old paranoia about friendships in the workplace; questioning motivations behind kindness 19:50 My weakness and fear around having rose-colored glasses 27:55 It's easy to have a chip on your shoulder and be full of hatred onbecomingmaria.blog